A Prayer of DavidPsalm 86
11 Teach me your way, O Lord,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
12 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.
13 For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave. [a]
I remember when I was just young in my faith, my heart is divided to commit serving God. I still recalled the agony of my heart. There is a part of me of my heart that I wanted to obey and there is a part that is saying “No, you can’t do it, it will be hard for you to commit, just do your own. “ My heart was heavy and in anguish. Why should I be troubled this way? Why Am I bothered? Am I normal to feel this way? I want an answer. I need a refuge. I want sympathy. I want to be comforted. Until I encountered this prayer of David. I realized that I was not alone. Thousands years ago, someone can relate with me… I prayed to God that same prayer of David. God answered and helped me to carry on.
This is a normal struggle for someone who desire to please God. From the letter of Paul to the Romans in the book of Romans 7:18-25, there is real spiritual battle and it is stronger to the one who are called for a godly noble purpose. From this scripture it says, it is through Christ unconditional love that we are saved from our pitiful, wretched sinful human nature. Understanding why Jesus died for me and for you on the Cross is a God’s grace. Jesus suffered bruises, insults and abandonment was not easy for him, being a human that time. But because he loves us, He chose to die that way in order for us to receive a new life. And for me to be able to live with hope, peace and joy.